I love you Autumn..I always will.

I’m sorry that your father (or lack there of) is a selfish bastard. 

I’m sorry that you have to grow up with a Dad that leaves your Mother every time he gets bored with her.

I’m sorry that you have to grow up meeting several different Mothers. 

I hope you don’t grow up to be like your parents, because both of them have no respect for themselves or anyone around them.

I don’t blame your Mother for hating me..I mean..I did come into the picture and her life was pretty much turned around..but that’s okay..because I was also selfish at one point too.

I loved you and your Father..I thought one day we’d all be one happy family, but..that’s not how life works when you walk into something that wasn’t meant to be stumbled upon.

I wish that when you grow up, you could see what your Father put me and several other women through..so you would know that being in his presence is everything but a good idea. 

There was a point in my life where I thought about ending my life every single day because of the man that jokingly is raising you. I took care of you more than he did..fuck..what a sorry excuse for a human being.

I hate (and yes I mean hate) your parents, but I will always love you..I wish I could see you again.